vrijdag 27 november 2009


Well I held you like a lover
Happy hands and your elbow in the appropriate place

And we ignored our others, happy plans
For that delicate look upon your face

Our bodies moved and hardened
Hurting parts of your garden
With no room for a pardon
In a place where no one knows what we have done

Do you come
Together ever with him?
And is he dark enough?
Enough to see your light?
And do you brush your teeth before you kiss?
Do you miss my smell?
And is he bold enough to take you on?
Do you feel like you belong?
And does he drive you wild?
Or just mildly free?
What about me?

Well you held me like a lover
Sweaty hands
And my foot in the appropriate place

And we use cushions to cover
Happy glands
In the mild issue of our disgrace

Our minds pressed and guarded
While our flesh disregarded
The lack of space for the light-hearted
In the boom that beats our drum

Well I know I make you cry
And I know sometimes you wanna die
But do you really feel alive without me?
If so, be free
If not, leave him for me
Before one of us has accidental babies
For we are in love

Do you come
Together ever with him?
Is he dark enough?
Enough to see your light?
Do you brush your teeth before you kiss?
Do you miss my smell?
And is he bold enough to take you on?
Do you feel like you belong?
And does he drive you wild?
Or just mildly free?

What about me?
What about me?

woensdag 25 november 2009


Yesterday I received my order from H&M. Sorry to say that I wasn't really impressed with all of the items. I really did love the black flat ballet flats but the size is just a bit too small. So no ballets for me. The bag I ordered was really disappointing, meaning it was soo small! The gladiator heels were quite nice but too much like the gladiator heels I already have. So this leaves me with the black shiny killerheels. At first I thought that I wasn't going to keep these ones but I tried them on and they fit perfectly. So only one item of the Jimmy Choo collection for me.

If you are interested in buying the other items. Please send me an email with your bid.

ps. all the shoes are size 8 (us)/39 (euro).

- Ballet flats are sold.


zaterdag 21 november 2009


Check out my new COS dress. Love it! Actually I loved everything in store...wanna go back soon :-)!

This is what I was wearing to my jobinterview (and yesterday to the amazing event; TEDxAmsterdam) only instead of the boots I wore my lovely Nine West peeptoe heels to the interview.

Dress: COS,
Tights: H&M,
Necklace: H&M,
Boots: Tango

donderdag 19 november 2009

dinsdag 17 november 2009


Last week I told you that I was invited for an intern interview at a very nice company. The interview went very well and the more I heard about the company the more I wanted to work there. After the interview I went home with a good feeling and that feeling turned out to be right. Around 5 o'clock friday afternoon they called me and said that they would love it if I would be their intern. I was so flabbergasted and so excited that I enthusiastically said yes! I talked about it with my bf and he was also very enthusiastic. Until we came to the financial part and we had to conclude that it was not possible to afford everything if I would not have a normal salary. I fellt really dissapointed but it is how it is. So this morning I called them to tell the bad news. They could totally understand it but at the moment they could not offer me a job. So unfortunately I am back on the road again.... looking for another nice job in the PR/Communication and fashion. Hope I will fnd a nice one.


ps I did manage to find the perfect job interview outfit. On thursday I went into town (Amsterdam) but couldn't find anything. Then a good friend of mine told me I had to go to COS in The Hague. And that's what I did on friday morning and I scored the perfect dress; black with balmainlike shoulders. Love it! Will post a pic asap.

Source: livejournal.com//users/foto_decadent

zondag 15 november 2009


Jimmy Choo for H&M, a lot of people were looking forward to the launch of this special line for H&M. Since I do not have any money I did not want to buy anything although I really liked the black flat studded pumps.

But yesterday morning when I woke up around half past nine I had some kind of weird feeling. I went downstairs made myself some breakfast and checked my email on my Iphone. And then I saw the clock ticking and suddenly I could not resist to try to enter the H&M online store. At first I couldn't get in, but stubborn as I am I kept on trying. And suddenly I was in... and I felt the pressure of scarcity, and out of the blue picked some shoes -no not only the flat pumps- and a bag and put them in my online basket...and..... I ordered them. I told myself that I could always return the items or sell them (I did not checked marktplaats and Ebay before I thought that lol).  Typically an example of the cognitive dissonance theory. So I kind of fall for the pressure of scarity...stupid me....although it still does not feel that way because I so do love the items I ordered.  H&M passed with flying colours....still think it's amazing why do people so want these items....and why am I one of them?!

What do you think? And did you get in, and had the chance to order something?


donderdag 12 november 2009


Source: Stocholmstreetstyle

maandag 9 november 2009


Thanks for all the best wishes for my application.

Got a phonecall today from the agency where I applied for a job. Unfortunately they don't have any vacancies at the moment but they are looking for an intern. Due to the fact that I do not have much experience in fashion and PR/Communicatie she asked if I would like that. I did not have to think about it, and immediatly said that I would like that very much. Next friday I have the job intern interview! I'll keep you guys posted which outfit I will choose! But there will definately be some shopping this week!

Keep you posted!!

Source: livejournal/foto_decadent

woensdag 4 november 2009


ps. Please keep on making outfits for me :-). Check the previous post for more information!